Unsure...

Your soothing breath, your lingering touch,

Every moment I miss them so much.

Those long, cold days, I spent in your arms,

With your warm embrace and angelic charms

I can’t recall, when we weren’t together

So used to your presence I have become

We spent an eternity with only each other

And the idea of moving on… seems lonesome.

I was always aware of what you meant to me,

The void you left, I had expected to see

Yet I was unprepared for its full weight

This parting… and what it might imprecate

It’s sad that there wasn’t a thing to be done,

Our time together had come to an end

We had to step out of the bright sun,

And into the dark we had to descend

I remember the things I said to you,

Promises that sparkled like morning dew

I also remember our last exchange,

Feeling pain… as the world went strange.

As I spoke, I felt my heart break,

But my resolve still held firm,

And I in spite of the growing ache

Ended our relationship’s lengthy term

And now that I am alone again,

With your thoughts and severe pain

I have to ask myself, day and night

If what we did was wrong or right

I had been sure this was a harsh good

That would eventually benefit us all

My head beats against unyielding wood

While I curse whatever, that made us fall.

I look back at those striking days,

As they fade away into the haze

I wonder if I shall ever see them again

Or hear you purr, as we kiss in the rain

I know how much I want you back,

And also why that must never happen

The lovely walk down that beaten track

Would once again result in today’s pain

I sit alone now, recalling the past

Slightly mellowed by memories amassed

I no longer muse over what I did

My past is gone and future is hid.

I know it’s hard to let you go,

But I have to stand by our crucial choice

In time my rapid pulse will slow,

Even as I hear your musical voice